I lost my way.

I lost my way. I really did lost my way. Ever since joining basketball when i was p3, I was touted to be a player with alot of potential ( im not afraid to say this ), picked last into the school team when i was p4 ignite the fire in me. I was motivated to show i was better than that and i made the main5 going into the competition. We won a 3rd in East Zone that year thanks to the seniors ( i average like probably 0.2 ppg ). Moving onto p5, winning got to our heads and we lost sight of our goal and didnt make the top4 that year. The following year on that decisive game against gongshang, we cracked under pressure and they made the top4 instead of us. I got accepted into Anglican and Chung Cheng then, it was then when i knew " Hey i can play this game well! " Preparing for Cdiv was nothing, i knew our team wasnt good in sec1, we would lose anyway and expected, we did. Sec2 came and i thought " im going to make the national youth team ". I always thought i was that good but i didnt get shit. Upper sec came and being the best performer during competition as a sec3, i lost my way. Sec4 came the reality check. I wasnt the best player on the team anymore, i was slowly overtaken...I knew i was the team captain just cos of what i did before and not then. I played well enough in the second round of competition ( i thought ) and looking at players getting their all-stars selection, i felt i had a chance. But i didnt get it. I know why now. I was good against players weaker than me, but i always crumble against players better than me. In decisive games, i always cracked under pressure. There you go, i lost my way. Being touted as a good player that early killed me BUT! thats a big but! basketball is in my blood....whether i lost it or not, im never giving up. Moving on from sec school now, i have no idea whether i will ever put on my basketball shoes again but when i do, watch out! Im coming back. (: