Reflection.

Woah its been close to 3 months since I blogged. The 3rd month of 2013 has just flown by just like that. I've titled this "Reflection" because there are just many things going on in my head, where my perspectives of things have changed.

Starting of with basketball. Basketball has been a really great deal in my life since my primary school basketball coach put that ball in my hands when I was just primary 3. 9 years on, I'm already 18 and I'm stuck at a crossroads. To speak of team achievements, I only have one back when I was 10, 3rd in East Zone. To speak of personal achievements, I have none. As of now, its been almost 3months? (i think) since I had a proper basketball training. My whole year 1 of poly is wasted in terms of basketball because of my poor GPA that didn't cut the grade to represent the school for POL-ITE and IVP. I know I was good enough, I gave my all in trainings and always played with a chip on my shoulder. I had something to prove. I know I was better than some of the others that made the cut, and I wanted everybody to know. After exams, I was looking forward to proving people wrong again but we didn't have trainings for the whole holidays. (WTH?) As of now, having not touched a basketball for so long, I can already feel those passions and motivations fading away. Even though, I have had opportunities placed in front of me to play and train, I decided not to pursue them. And trust me, that wouldn't have happened 2 years ago. It left me wondering, "Is this it?", "Is this the end?". I still have no conclusion...

Moving on....its what every kid has to go through. GROWING UP. To start it off, I'm doing really badly in school. Well, I didn't fail any modules this semester but its not any better (GPA, I'm saying) That's what got me wondering. For a long time, I always feel like life will be good, results doesn't matter as long as you have the heart, you will make something of yourself. And as I'm growing up, and with reality hitting me in the face, I start to worry if my past perspectives were right. At this point in time, 1.88 ain't getting me anywhere. Just to say, I'm hoping to attend university overseas, preferably the States, but Australia seems the more realistic plan. For the next two years, I have got to pull it up to at least 2.5 to get me to where I want to go.

All these had got me thinking. I feel like I'm growing up slowly to face this scary reality right in front of me. On a positive note, I'm getting my priorities right. For too long and too much, basketball was the front runner in my life, and I was wrong that life is going to be easy for me. As of now, basketball has taken a back foot and whether I'm returning to basketball when school reopens remains a doubt. I will be really happy if I can finally play this year. If things don't go my way, it may just spell the end of it. And a new chapter in my life will emerge... I hope.