I actually smiled.

8.37 am, 13th September 2013, I woke up to the immense drama unfolding on Twitter. "I made it!", "...disappointed.", "I should have done better" are just some of the few tweets I saw out of the many. Without washing up, I flipped up my laptop screen and pressed on the ON button with surprising ease and relaxed mood. It was my 3rd time doing so since I stepped into Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Year 1, with disappointments on results day taught me a lot about myself.

Continuing on...

Google Chrome was my regular internet browsing go-to and NPAL was where I'm headed. The screen appeared without any lag time which I did not expect and what greeted me was 2.3182. I...

Maybe I'm wrong but I will never understand those who allows their grades to affect who they are and those around them. At this point in time, I wish I could tell them with a straight face but knowing how distraught they already are, I tend to keep quiet but I wish they are reading this. Barely making the 2.0 barrier, I found myself comforting others who were doing better than I am, I found myself in absolutely shock that to them it meant a lot and it didn't quite affected me as much. Just to clear things up, I do think my grades sucks and I do understand the different expectations all of us have of ourselves. I just don't understand and find myself still searching for the answers. My thoughts are that whether you make it or a not grades wise, your love ones are still there for you, your true friends are still there for you either way. Nothing has changed so why frown? You just gotta believe you are better than those grades and move on. Probably nobody will understand but I don't understand either.

I... I actually smiled. Yes, I smiled at 2.3182. Mum walks in and we started talking and she said "All pass can already" (in Mandarin). If I can smile it off at 2.3182 and actually look forward to the next semester, I honestly hope everyone that is reading this could laugh it off if you didn't feel your grades were good enough.

"Be content with what you have, remain hopeful for what you want."